I made a film for assessment for my Video for Artists course at Edinburgh Art College called Self Portrait 2.
This extract from the Learning Journal I kept as part of the course explains how the film came to be made.
My first week of filming involved shooting footage of some shop windows at night then adding shots of me getting onto a bus, going upstairs and sitting at the front seat with a view out onto the street below. I knew I wanted the film to have a dark, gothic feel to it so many of the clips were treated with the Film Noir effect.
I called this film Night Shops.
I liked the initial establishing shot of the antique window, some of the dummies dressed in wedding dresses and a close up of a drain. These remained next week when I added some footage given to us by our tutor to give the film a nightmare feel. More Film Noir effects were added along with Gaussian. I cropped parts of the film and speeded up footage of the dog running.
I called this film Night Shops Nightmare.
Next I added some footage of a fellow classmate looking out of the window and peering through the glass of a door along with footage going downstairs and through a door. I called this film Reflections.
I liked the random nature of these close ups so they remained but I wasn't sure about the movement clips - perhaps they didn't work as they seemed laborious and I wanted the pace to be kept very lively, almost erratic at times to evoke a sense of disorientation. I also added footage of the light show at the Botanics and the bus journey home with opacity shots of the house in the Botanics.
I called this film Colour Nightmare.
I added text next which was taken from a couple of my own poems about depression. I also added the soundtrack taken from Tindersticks' album Ypres plus footage from Stirling Castle and a firework display. I did also edit out some of the movement shots going through a door and downstairs. It seemed to work better this way.
I called this film Self Portrait 2 First Version.
After some thought and discussion with my tutor and fellow students, I added some shots at the end which were not treated with any effects to suggest a change in my health as I became well again.
I called this film Self Portrait 2.